I've been really bad at keeping the blog updated but since I've been on a social media detox for the past month, I'm actually taking the time to tidy things up !
Last year I started written roleplay on forums again and I've been having a lot of fun. Last summer I signed up to a new one and created Eudes/Anès, a vagrant monk in 1590 France.
a little cw for mention on sexual assault and depiction of self-harm,
you might want to skip this post if those are sensitive topics for you !
To make it short, Eudes/Anès had a very deep 'friendship' with a girl named Deirdre, but she got accused of being a witch by the local people who took it upon themselves to have her burned at the stake. Since he was so close to her, people turned accusation toward him too and in the panic he fled, leaving her to fate. Unsurprisingly, this event brought a lot of guilt and the trauma from it snapped something in him that made him start to hear 'god's' voice and see his 'signs' (there are supernatural things in the lore of the forum, but this is just plain disillusion/ptsd), so he went and entered a monastery. Sadly for him, he was blackmailed and abused there and was only saved from killing his persecutor when a vagrant monk stopped in the monastery and got him interested in his way of life, taking him under his wing and travelling with him to teach him his ways.
Now he's on his own again because they couldn't travel together eternally and he tries to repent from his terrible sins through helping others and lots of flogging ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ
As far as gender goes, it's a big shrug emoji for him: he uses masculine pronouns in french and dresses as a man, pretty much living as one, partly because he was often taken for one during his youth and so it feels 'right', partly because it grants him security, being well aware of the danger of being seen as a woman (as evidence by his experience at the monastery). He has a weird relationship with gender -mostly no strong feelings towards any end of the spectrum-. To me he's like, a he/they genderqueer lesbian, but honestly he wouldn't put labels on himself.
As a point of reference, when I refer to him as his monk name 'Eudes', it's post-monastery, when I refer to his birthname 'Anès', it's backstory stuff. Ok ? Ok !
Anès and Deirdre lived in an abandoned house in the forest and they were pretty much having a jolly ol time living outside of society before the whole witch accusation thing. Deirdre pretty much dragged Eudes out of being a beggar. They have a weird relationship that borders on toxic, be it because Deirdre is always bullying Anès or because Anès is extremely dependent on Deirdre (they both love the other but they've been too fucked by life to show it in healthy ways)
They were also 100% fucking gay, even if they didn't put words on it.
I'm leaving you on a little drawing of Eudes being his weird self and a little ref sheet I quickly drew because I really wanted to get a commission of these two lol hope you enjoy these two despite the dark themes in their story. I made Eudes at a very low point in my mental health this year to cope, so they got reaaaally fucked (I'm sorry my child)
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